I was very introspective and thinking about posting and then when I got home it died in me. I need to seriously restructure the way the energy flows in my apartment. Way too much of Stephanie still here, and my discouragement and being sick and... yeah. I gave up and started applying to some of the positions I could get outside of Utah. I would have to make some kind of arrangement for the rest of this semester if i got a position, but it's not impossible.